Father Time, Time is the Fathers

My heart is filled with thanksgiving as I stand in my warm kitchen, making my youngest son his favorite egg dish. I take a moment to look out the window over the wintry landscape. The brown deer running up the hill, along the deep tree line, stands out against the white fallen snow. I am so thankful to live where I do.
My mouth opens in praise as I thank God for providing our home, the land it sits on, the wildlife that shares it with us, as well as the family who owns it and that have adopted us as their own. I praise God for having not only heard my prayers, but for being so attentive to my heart to also provide the things of His creation that I most adore. I began to speak of His overwhelming grace, and give thanks that my name, Samantha Grace, is a constant reminder of how abundant grace is in my life. I open my heart to receive this great gift He bestows to me.
But as I stood in praise, thanks, and grace, I also confessed how I want to live more for Him. I began praying, “God, please forgive me, and help me to redeem the time. Help me to manage my time better.” My lips were silenced as I softly and gently heard, “It’s not YOUR time.” My prayers and confession immediately changed.
I know this to be truth. Many times I have surrendered all to Him, and many times, one by one, He unveils areas in my life that I falsely believe to be surrendered. Time, is His. HE called me here for good works and purpose. (Ephesians 2:10) I don’t desire to walk around in my own will, wasting precious time. I want to be completely consumed in His will, redeeming HIS time.
I encourage you to step back a moment and ask God to reveal if you are redeeming His time, or taking it all for self.

Gods time

Always in love and encouragement,

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Lighting up my mountains

If we were all to stop for a moment, turn around, and look at the path behind us, would it not look similar? We would all see fields of beauty; roses of a wedding day, lilies of child birth, strong, tall trees of family, friends, and mentors. We would all also see some mountains. Sure, they may have different names and heights, but we all have those dark, rocky peaks.
I’ve recently wanted to spread the light from my fields of beauty to the entirety of my path, including those dark valleys and skyscraping mountains. They’re behind me, which means I’ve conquered them. They are a very large part of me. Why not cover them in light?!
I had that very opportunity at a tea and testimony meeting with some fellow moms.
I’ve only shared my testimony once before. That was in Nicaragua on a mission trip, where I already KNEW some of those girls knew my mountains by name. It’s always somewhat frightening to stand before a crowd, all eyes and ears on you, and be an open book. But, standing in front of a crowd, all eyes and ears on you, without knowing if anyone there knows your mountains names..multiply that fear by ten.
I know I’d been led to share. I knew purpose was walking ahead of me, almost invincibly. But, I stood in front of that crowd and got naked. I encouraged them to do the same. Take off your shirt of shame. Drop those busting britches of self condemnation. And when you’re completely naked, turn your eyes to Jesus who made you. Turn to Jesus who is lovesick for you and calls you worthy. Turn to Jesus who spread wide his arms on the cross to die for you in His unshattering love.
After I finished speaking, I felt worse than before. I could feel the heaviness of incline underfoot. I didn’t say all the things I wanted to. It was too heavy for a morning of tea and fellowship. All of a sudden I had found myself in the ring, and I was kicking my own butt. Imagine walking by someone and watching them body slam themselves. That was me. Throwing myself down on the colorful flowers I had just planted in my field of beauty. Crushing the stems of courage. I laid on that bed of flowers and turned on some Brene Brown.
“Yeah, it’s so scary to show up. It feels dangerous to be seen. It’s terrifying. But, it is not as scary, dangerous, or terrifying as getting to the end of our lives and thinking, what if I would’ve shown up? What would’ve been different?”
I showed up. As dangerous and terrifying as it was to be seen, naked, I showed up. At that moment I was able to stand back up. I thanked God for allowing me to shed light on my mountains.
As we celebrate the death of Christ today, remember why. Because He LOVES us. Love yourself! Love others! We are ALL worthy, even with our mountains.
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Time, I let thee go…

I’ve been struggling with time lately. Trying to control it even. The things I am not courageous enough to face, I avoid like the plague, convincing myself that a later, better time will come. The things my heart desperately desires, I attempt to rush and force to happen prematurely. There lies a wicked combination of the two, which may be most frightening, and damaging to me. Ya know, the hearts desires that I’ve worked diligently toward, yet seem to terrifying to receive with arms wide open and so I turn away from it.
I spent this past Sarurday interacting with some residents of a local assisted living home. I noticed that all of them talked either about their future, or their past. They were focused ahead, on the return home, or the home left behind, only to be seen in visions of memory.
It broke my spirit and encouraged me to embrace the day.
Each day is a gift, a journey, with moments to be seized, and lessons to be learned. I’ve realized that today sets me up, prepares me for tomorrow, and matures me from yesterday.
How many blessings have I already missed because I’ve focused ahead, or behind? Today, that doesn’t matter. What matters, is my choice to be immersed in today. Today, I will choose to trust in the truth of Gods perfect timing. Today, I choose to praise both what is, and what is not. I will live the blessings of today, trusting my faithful, good God for the blessings of tomorrow!
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The stormy, shaken ground

I just finished reading about large magnitude earthquakes shaking the earth in Nicaragua. My heart is special to Nicaragua as it is the place I committed my first mission to the Lord. I immediately opened a devotion and was led to Psalm 29. The Psalm so happens to be a reminder that our God is the commanding voice over nature. Therefore, when the ground shakes, in Him we can find strength and peace.
How different could this be as we walk along our spiritual path?
We will be walking a smooth road that is flower laden. We enjoy breaths of fresh air upon our cool face as we walk in contentment. But, without notice, the ground below our feet trembles. We’re no longer able to experience the fresh air or the joy that previously surrounded us. It could be we’ve lost a job, spouse, home, or ourselves.
Can I encourage you? Perhaps myself a bit too.  “The Lord will give strength to His people; The Lord will bless His people with peace.” (Psalm 29:11)
It doesn’t say He might. It says He WILL. Be patient. Endure. Plant flowers in the storm. Gods got your back.
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Fear is the prison Jesus broke you out of

It’s time to get real. Real transparent. I pretend I have it all together. Sometimes I pretend so well that I think I could be in Hollywood getting paid millions. I’m tired of pretending. In fact, the pretending takes so much energy, that my passions take backseat to my acting gig.
Today, I’m going to admit to you, my readers, (thank you) that I often give up on things that take extended effort. I give up on things, that though I enjoy, I feel like I labor in vain. Hearing those thoughts projected make me laugh. If it brings joy, how can it be vain? Not to mention how temporal and deceptive feelings can be.
I can’t be alone in wanting to see my dreams achieved NOW. I can’t be the only person who expects to see the results I want when I want them. I know I can’t be the only one who has given up when this didn’t happen. Am I?!
I know that I’m not. My sister confirmed it. In our discussion we tried to understand why. Our greatest conclusion was a combination of fear and taking the easy road.
Whatever the reason, I want change. I want to keep pressing through the muck. I want to get as muddy as I need, to see my dreams, passions, and desires come to fruition. I want to fight Goliath. He is afterall not nearly as strong as he seems.
God wants to see our desires alive too. Who do you think put them in your heart? Could it be your Maker? I’m guessing so.
I feel like sometimes, ok mostly, I expect Him to do all the work. I want Him to completely and solely build my platform, and I want to enjoy the ride, completely pain free. He assures us His best, but if we’re giving up on Him, we can’t blame Him for less than best. I want to see things through. All the way to the end. What if the end was my very next exit?! Couldn’t I hold on and push through slightly further? I bet I could. I bet you could too.
I’m going to run with these desires of my heart. I’m going to face fears, tackle them down and run right past them. I’m going to be strong in the Lord and the power of His might. I’m going to work WITH Him, giving thanks always. The mud is what makes us stronger. God is on the sideline cheering us on by name, and sometimes even taking our hand, helping us up, and pushing us along.
So what is it your heart aches for? Don’t take the easy road. Easy isn’t victorious. Fight hard and don’t quit. Your dream is just around the corner. 
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Trust and Believe

Trapped in a den of lions? Are your Lions roaring, growling, ready to pounce, with mouth wide open? Perhaps you feel as though you’re about to be devoured. Maybe, the face of the lion, while distorted with blood thirsty anger, looks familiar. Maybe it’s the face of a friend, a spouse, or a co-worker.

Daniel found himself in a den of lions, for worshipping his God. A law had been signed and sealed that no one should worship anyone other than King Darius. Daniel, as he was accustomed, dropped to his knees three times daily to praise the Living God. When the Kings men found him on bent knees, they couldn’t wait to deliver him to the King, and ultimately to the lions.

Those happy and proud men who found Daniel breaking their law were sure his life sentence was signed and sealed.

But God!

There would be a delivering, but it wouldn’t be to death. You see, Daniel believed his God, (Daniel 6:23) and his God believed in him. “My God sent His angel and shut the lions’ mouths, so that they have not hurt me, because I was found innocent before Him…” (6:22) He, the Almighty, faithful, loving God shut the mouths of the lions, delivering Daniel.

He’ll deliver you too. Just belive. Trust and believe.

Peace be multiplied to you.

…For He is the living God,

And steadfast forever,

His kingdom is the one which shall not

be destroyed,

And His dominion shall endure to the end.

He delivers and rescues,

And He works signs and wonders

In heaven and on earth…

6:25-27

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Don’t forget to fall to those beautiful knees and give, joyfully, praise to He who is worthy.

The search is over

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I’ve searched, oh how I’ve searched. Purpose, where are you? Meaning, will you please reveal yourself to me?! I’ve studied journalism, early childhood education, forensics, criminal justice, sociology, philosophy. I’ve worked, I’ve searched. I prayed and begged for motherhood, surely that would give me purpose. So why then am I still searching?

Because I am overlooking, or maybe perhaps, UNDER-looking. My sight is shallow.

We all desire to find our purpose. The problem is we believe in purpose as a title, a position, a career. We seek meaning, looking in each corner of the earth, but we don’t look up. Purpose and meaning can be found when we look to the Creator. HE is our purpose. Meaning can not reveal itself, but God can reveal meaning.

He’s opened my eyes. I now see that meaning-is loving. That purpose-is loving. We all have work to do. My work is to be a Mom. My work is to write-to share the good news-the glory of God. My work is to do unto the least of these. My work is to do the will of Him who sent me, and to finish His work.

My eyes are open. I’ve removed idols. I’ve stopped asking for meaning to reveal itself to me, and asked God to do so. Do you know what He said? “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.”

When we do that, everything else becomes meaningful. We have and recognize purpose. When we live according to our purpose, ALL things are possible.

Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends.

Lord, I love you. I will love others as You have loved me! Thank you for opening my eyes to true purpose. You are glorious and I give you ALL honor and praise. You are worthy! Amen.

Encouraging Scripture: Matthew 19:26, 22:37, 25:40, John 4:34, 13:34, 15:13