But I have trusted in Your mercy;
My heart shall rejoice in Your salvation,
I WILL sing to the Lord,
Because HE HAS DEALT BOUNTIFULLY WITH ME!!
Psalm 13:5 (Emphasis mine.)
I walked away. A little girl. 14. How could there be a God who has already put me through so much? Abuse. Extreme physical, mental, emotional, and most recently sexual. He took my Mother. Now, I live with my abuser. Where is God? I can’t see Him.
I walked to church, by myself. A fourteen year old. I loved Him. Believed in Him. Trusted Him.
Where was He?
I’ll make my own way. Men will love me when I give them my purity. I need to provide for myself, I will steal. I need to remain attractive to men. I will diet. I only weigh 115. But still I need to lose weight. I love food. I will just purge myself. I can’t do that. I just won’t eat. I can’t do that either. I’ll just live on diet pills.
Give me alcohol. I can’t have fun without it. Narcotics numb me. I fall in love with them. Addicted. Feeling unloved I take nine at a time. My thirteen year old sister hides them on me. One day I snort them. I’m surely going to die.
Pregnant. A dream come true. Surely I can turn my life around. I do. I am so in love.
Three months old baby almost dies. Life threatening illness.
No where to turn, I turn back to God. Begging. Bartering. Give this child his life back. Spare Him and I am Yours again. Committed. Yours.
I keep my word, when He saves my son.
Fiance cheating. Son almost dies two more times.
What will I see? Where will I look?
I have life. My son has life. I have endured. I am saved. I am loved. I am an overcomer. He is my Strength. My life, though hard, is blessed beyond measure. I can see. I am not a victim, but a VICTOR!
Many mountains climbed. Fog so thick I could barely see. But I kept climbing. Refocusing. Set my Eyes on Him. Eyes FIXED on Him. Heart FIXED on Him. Mind FIXED on Him.
HE HAS dealt BOUNTIFULLY with me.
And I praise Him.
Be encouraged, my friends. Fix your eyes, heart, and mind on the bounty. You’re a warrior. A victor. Proclaim it. Own it. LIVE IT!
You are loved beyond measure.
Psalm 29:11, John 3:30, Numbers 6:24-26