Here I am, send me..

“But you shall receive power when the Holy Ghost has come upon you; and you shall be witnesses to Me..”
Sunday morning I awoke feeling rather lethargic and nauseous. I sat in my recliner, in front of the fireplace, with my bible, journal, and a hot cup of coffee. I filled myself full of prayer and praise. Inside, I felt the amazing food I had eaten the day before pushing its way up, up, up. (You all know what this feels like, no need to get graphic on ya.) I heard this voice say “You probably shouldn’t go to church today.”
This particular weeks service we call “Power Encounter Sunday.” I spent Friday evening in the seats of my church praying for a “power encounter” for my brothers and sisters that they have never experienced before. A new, fresh anointing!
I knew I was in need of more strength when I heard that enticing offer. Stay home from church? Sit in my recliner, in my pajamas, and read books all day? Oh, how delightful that sounds. Instead, I went to my bedroom crawled onto my bed with my knees to my chest and my face to the mattress, covered my head with my handmade prayer shawl, and began to pray.
“God, how I need You this morning! I need Your fresh anointing! I need Your strength. I commit this day to You, Lord. I need Your presence! I need You! I seek Your presence, all I want is Your presence!” I arose, freshened up, dressed and went to church. My beautiful sister and her husband had taken up seats near the very seat where I had devoted my Friday evening prayer and praise.
As worship began I laid my open hands, palms up, ready to receive on the chair in front of me. I closed my eyes for better concentration, seeking the ever precious face of my Sovereign King, Jesus Christ. I professed my love for Him. I professed my desire to be used by Him. I thanked Him that He was already using me. “I want more,” I pleaded. “I want ALL You have for me.”
My hands raised in praise, in surrender. My prayers, even from Friday evening, were manifesting as the awesome power of the Holy Spirit came upon me. “Here you are, my living sacrifices. You, who have been crucified with Christ.” Galatians 2:20 immediately came rolling off my tongue. “I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.”
The prompting was for me to share this with the church body. To edify my brothers and sisters. To encourage them to keep walking out their faith in the Son of God, with a new and fresh anointing; these children, these living sacrifices! I had never given word from the Holy Ghost to an entire body before! Definitely not in the middle of worship! That is how He wanted to use me. He was answering my very own prayers! He was using me! Sending me!
The music softened and our beautiful sister leading worship began to speak, “I feel that the anointing is on someone who has never before spoken out. He wants you to open up and speak. Do not be afraid.”
Hands raised, power strong, soft voice urging, “You are my living sacrifices..”, music playing softly, a body of believers waiting. I knew what I was to do, and I didn’t do it. When the music began to play louder, and I knew I had missed it, I sobbed tears of forgiveness. That same small voice said, “I love you, daughter. I will use you again.”
We went on to talk about Moses and his rod (among other great things). My Pastor said “It was just an ordinary rod.” It was the EXTRAordinary God that was using that ordinary rod that turned serpent, that split the sea, that led victory over Amalek. It wasn’t the rod, it was GOD! How awesome He used a rod. How much MORE does He yearn to use His children for the extraordinary!?
I encourage you this morning to take my experience as an example. Don’t remain silent! Don’t sit still when God says, “Child, I want to use you for glory for My Kingdom.” He loves you SO much. Far more than a rod! He can do great and awesome things, using YOU!!!
Abba, Father, Loving Lord, I thank you for your extraordinary love you have for me. I praise You for Your extraordinary power. I am humbled that You have a desire to use ME to bring glory to Your Kingdom. I am humbled that You desire to use me to bring encouragement to Your workmanship, that is, Your children. Open my heart, and instill in me a boldness to do Your work, Your will! I love you greatly! Amen.


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