For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God
Ephesians 2:8 (KJV)
Do you ever feel like you aren’t enough for someone? You try to be, for so long, until you are eventually blown into smithereens? Ever feel like you’re constantly trying to appease all those who love you? You bend so far for someone that you eventually just break?
When we try to be who were not, to appease others, we lose our identity. We get so lost in fulfilling the demands of what others want us to be that we easily forget what we want to be. Bitterness, envy, resentment, and anger become our fruit. Who wants to eat of such terrible fruit?
I find myself attempting to hide that fruit. Instead of picking it out and tossing it away, I allow it to remain. I think of the strawberries I love to buy. The taste of them are so sweet to my taste-buds. But, I usually end up having to throw out the whole package because I let one bad berry sit with the other fresh, red, beautiful ones. I pick around it, but before I know it the mold has infiltrated the whole package.
So it is within my relationships. There are some that bear bad fruit. I call them distractions. I am talking about those relationships that take all of my energy in pacification, that there is none left for ME. Sometimes I grow weary and yearn to just sit home and spend a whole day writing. I want to step forward out of some relationships that I know are distractions, but end up solely focusing on the well being of the other party. I end up sacrificing all of my own.
I received revelation that I need to only offer what I can, and allow others the freedom to love me as I am or seek what they are looking for elsewhere. I will never be able to offer anyone complete satisfaction.
I am going to focus my faith on a genuine love that receives me just as I am. My faith inspires me to receive genuine love that encourages me to be me. My faith leads me to genuine love that commands me to fulfill my hearts desires and will assist me in doing so. My faith tells me that genuine love is grace. Grace is God. If the righteous and Holy ONE loves me, and receives me just as I am, how much more should fellow-man?
I seek simply, “unending love, amazing grace.”