Isaiah 43:1 (NIV)
This day, I am so thankful that these words came right on time. Fear not, the swelling in your chest. Fear not, the pain in your body. Fear not, the loss of your current apartment. Fear not, that your not a good enough Mom, friend, or person. Fear not, that you are temporarily alone. Fear not, your financial poverty.
SO many fears were manifesting, or at least trying to find fertile ground. Just before it could consume me, I received these powerful words; “Fear not!” Yet, it sure seems very easy to allow current circumstances to steal our fruit.
Yesterday, I was filled! I had such great peace and joy. I was able to start my day soaking in my bathtub, reading the word. The greatest way for me to be able to start out! I rode my bike to see my Chiropractor who relieved, and lightened some painful symptoms. I rode my bike somemore. I played with my children. I even went and enjoyed dinner, with a church community that I had never met before, in a beautiful country home overlooking miles of green tree filled mountains and Seneca Lake. It was breathtaking.
On the way home I was talking to a friend and caught myself sharing the pain I was physically in first and foremost. I shared with her the failed inspection of our current home and the potential evacuation of it in a short month, two at the most. My phone shut off as she started to encourage me. The screen was fogging over. The water bottle I had put in my gifted Coach purse had leaked water and my cell phone drank it up.
My joy and peace had been robbed in an instant. I don’t have the money for a new phone. I am going to have to save every penny for a new place to live, or on healthcare. I don’t have anyone to go home and whine to while they wrap their arms around me and remind me to fear not. I am alone. All alone.
EXCEPT, there are two beautiful babies in the back seat who are safe, full, and tired from so much fun. EXCEPT, for my Father who never leaves me nor forsakes me. He said, “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.”
I clearly needed the reminder that this life is only temporary. I am only promised today. I need to fear not, what tomorrow will bring. I need to watch the power I give to my words and to my temporary circumstances. I need to feed my mouth, thus feeding my brain, thus feeding my soul, with good fruit. Just as my physical body craves nourishing fruit, so does my spirit.
Fear Not, Live Peace!